Volume 3 Chapter 38 Single-minded Feelings
"I'm really sorry, I can't offer you anything too fancy."
Feeling down, Suisen had come to the room where Sianna was staying after his sudden invitation.
He had planned to apologize for the surprise and leave right away, but Sianna had even prepared tea for him.
Since it was quite a nice tea, Suisen felt it would be rude to leave without tasting it.
Reluctantly accepting the tea, Suisen apologized for what had just happened.
"I'm really sorry for surprising you earlier. I never expected Ms. Sianna Navis to pass by that place..."
Then, Sianna Navis bowed her head in apology.
"No, I'm the one who should apologize. Because of my actions, I've caused you, Sir Suisen, a lot of trouble..."
"Trouble?"
Receiving an apology she didn't understand, Suisen raised an eyebrow.
Even though it was his own carelessness that almost caused a collision, why was he the one being apologized to?
"A few of my acquaintances have been spreading bad rumors about you, and I couldn't stop it..."
"Oh, that's what you mean."
It seemed Sianna felt sorry about the excessive actions of her fans.
She had said she would try to put a stop to it, but it seemed she had failed, and the fans were still out of control.
"I wanted to apologize for this again, so I invited you to my room. But how should I make it up to you..."
"It's fine, really. This isn't your fault, Ms. Sianna Navis. Please don't worry about it."
Suisen had come to terms with the situation.
Sianna couldn't control her fans completely, and they had their own will.
Given that he was being resented despite that, there was no way for Sianna to prevent it, no matter how she acted.
"However, I have heard that because of me, Sir Suisen is currently being treated unfairly within the guild. There are baseless rumors spreading, and Sir Suisen is being treated as a nuisance by every party, leaving Sir Suisen isolated in the guild. Clearly, this is all my responsibility."
Sianna still bowed deeply to show her apology.
"If I hadn't confessed my feelings, this wouldn't have happened. So please, I would like the opportunity to make amends."
"Make amends?"
"Sir Suisen is not currently part of any party, right? So I will support Sir Suisen from now on. I would like to leave my current party and work together with just Sir Suisen, if that's alright?"
"..."
Just the two of them, working together...
In other words, Sianna is saying she will leave her current party to follow him just to support him.
With already scandalous rumors circulating in the guild, he probably won't be able to join any party in the future.
As a way to make amends for that, Sianna is proposing this.
"I can't let you go that far..."
"No, it's fine. I won't be at peace unless I make that much amends. Please, form a party with me, Sianna Navis. I will support you, Sir Suisen, from now on."
It's probably a once-in-a-lifetime invitation to form a party.
Suisen felt a deep conflict, not wanting to miss this opportunity.
If he turned this down, he would likely be alone for the rest of his life...
As that hesitation arose, just as he was about to decline Sianna's invitation──.
She gave him one last push.
"──!?"
A soft, warm sensation ran through his arm.
Sianna suddenly hugged his arm.
"Ms. Sianna Navis...?"
"Also, I... still have feelings for you, Sir Suisen!"
An unexpected second "confession".
There was no way he wouldn't be shaken.
After being confessed to again by someone he had previously turned down, Suisen's mind went completely blank.
With their bodies pressed closely together, he could feel Sianna's warmth up close, while her voice echoed softly in his ear.
"I've told my acquaintances that I have no lingering feelings, but I've always admired you, Sir Suisen. So, forming a party with you is definitely not a burden for me."
She moved even closer.
Gently, she held onto his sleeve.
Sianna, with her purple curls swaying, looked up at him with her matching purple eyes slightly glistening.
"Could you please think about being with me once more?"
"..."
Forming a party just with Sianna Navis.
She was kindly suggesting this for his sake, as he was feeling lonely all alone.
And despite having been turned down once, she still had such strong feelings for him.
Could there be a more luxurious situation than this?
Suisen felt as if a ray of light had pierced through the darkness that had clouded her vision.
Slowly, he leaned her face closer to Sianna's flushed cheeks.
Feeling each other's warmth up close, Suisen gently pressed his lips against Sianna's, who had glistening eyes...
'So, I like you as a person.'
However, just before it happened, Suisen hesitated.
(...No, I can't.)
Coming back to his senses, Suisen slowly pulled away from Sianna and bowed deeply.
"...I-I'm sorry. I have someone else I like."
"Eh...?"
He could feel the shock in Sianna's voice.
Sianna Navis was such a wonderful person.
She cared for him so deeply, despite his messy self.
But being confronted with Sianna's feelings reminded him even more of his passion for Alium.
He really did like Alium.
She was the one who taught him what it feels like to love someone for the first time.
In the guild, where he was treated like a pariah, the first person to reach out to him was his greatest benefactor.
Even if there's no pulse of hope, he absolutely doesn't want to give up on that person and run away to another woman.
"...Who exactly is that?"
Hearing Sianna's sad murmur, Suisen replied with a feeling of guilt.
"It's Ms. Alium Groke, the woman who works at the guild's reception. She's the one who helped me, and she's the important person who taught me what it means to love for the first time."
As Suisen spoke with a sense of guilt while picturing his beloved in his mind, he continued to bow his head.
Eventually, he felt a cold sensation on both of his cheeks.
It was Sianna's delicate hands, which seemed to have grown cold from extreme tension.
"Please lift your head, Sir Suisen."
"Ms. Sianna Navis..."
"You've been thinking about that person all this time, haven't you? That's why you can't respond to my feelings."
"...Ah, I'm really sorry."
When Sianna lifted her face, her sad expression came into view.
This only made Suisen feel more guilty, but as if sensing his feelings, Sianna said.
"No, it's my fault for stubbornly confessing my feelings even after being rejected twice. Please don't blame yourself."
Then Sianna looked straight into his eyes with unwavering determination.
"Even though I've been turned down twice, I don't regret having feelings for you, Sir Suisen. Love is something irreplaceable that brings joy to people. So please, be honest with your feelings too."
"Sianna..."
"I will support you, Sir Suisen. That's all I can do for you right now."
With tears slightly glistening at the corners of her eyes, Sianna tightened her expression with firm resolve.
Wiping away her tears with her delicate white fingers, she turned her gaze toward the window and continued in a reassuring voice.
"To those acquaintances who are not fond of you, Mr. Suisen, I will remind them once again. So please, feel free to express your feelings. And please, Mr. Suisen, make your love come true and be with that person."
"..."
"I absolutely won't allow you to reject me and then be rejected by someone else."
Sianna turned around, a faint smile on her face.
Even though tears were still glistening in her eyes, she mustered up a delicate smile.
Encouraged by Sianna, Suisen was able to regain his determination.
"...Thank you, Ms. Sianna Navis. I feel like it would be a waste to keep these feelings bottled up. So, I've decided to be honest about my feelings. I will tell Ms. Alium how I feel and definitely become romantically involved with her."
"Yes, that's the spirit, Mr. Suisen."
It's not like he would just throw himself at it and hope for the best.
Suisen Pride is about continuing to try with a heart that won't break.
With help from Roezé and encouragement from Sianna, the fans' tyranny might calm down a bit.
There's nothing to be afraid of anymore.
Suisen reignited his passion for Alium and regained his refreshing smile.
"I'm heading to the guild right away. I will confront my feelings head-on. I'll make sure to be with Ms. Alium and give Ms. Sianna Navis some good news. So please, wait here for that moment."
"Yes, I will quietly pray for your feelings to come true, Mr. Suisen."
With his resolve set, Suisen tightened his expression and decided to head to the guild.
He would not let Sianna's feelings go to waste; he would definitely succeed in confessing.
With that determination in his heart, Suisen placed his hand on the door and prepared to take a courageous step forward.
...In that moment.
"By the way, Mr. Suisen..."
"Uh, what is it?"
Bzzzz!!!
I felt a "sharp pain" as if something had exploded in his back.
"Ah...!"
Suisen weakly collapsed to the ground.
As his consciousness faded, he managed to move his neck and look up behind him, and there was...
"Sia, nna...!? Wh-what are you...!?"
There stood Sianna Navis, holding "Vaidor (Purple Lightning)" in one hand.
Sianna looked down at him quietly... with a defiant smile.
With no time to ask Suisen anything, his consciousness gradually drifted away, and as he saw Sianna's eerie figure for the last time, he closed his eyelids.
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